Dear Daddy
We finally went home today.I have no words to actually describe how I felt inside... Going back to the place where you took your last breath. I have tried so hard to avoid this day...yet today, Im home.I'm overwhelmingly dreadful..
I had a lot going on in my mind. Unbearable pain mostly missing the moments that you have spent with us. With ME. And the thought of knowing that you wont be visiting us anytime
Soon... I missed the time when Vin was so exited picking you up at the terminal and we had some drinks afterwards. My heart ache as everything i see and do reminds me of you...
Dear Daddy,
The ferry is departing at 430pm today. We arrived 2hrs early. We sat waiting at your friend's restaurant. Avan was being so super hyperactive. He wont stop at nothing. As soon as we boarded, my heart sank remembering the days that you have been traveling with us. The sea was so calm today though the weatherman said its going to be otherwise. My heart was weeping.
The passenger's deck was showing Mr.Bean episodes. I wept even more when the others was laughing hilariously. I certainly know how much you love watching Mr.Bean. I miss the way you laugh so hard even without your dentures on.
As I climb up the stairs to the top of the ship, I took sometime to get comfortable and decided to walk on your shoes. It was no wonder that you have spent so much time up here. It's so beautiful once you get to appreciate it. I felt at some point...We were together and somehow you were standing in the corner smiling at me. And i wanted so much to hug you then you disappeared in thin air. So i cried even more...
As we reach the dock daddy, Suddenly nervousness Surrounds me.At the Same time, it felt so Empty but yet so heavy. I Cried all the way home. everything I See is You...
I can hear your GPS directing us the way and at times it recalculate when we took a turn. The traffic light reminded me how you almost broke the red light last time. The airport... The supermarket.. The cars...Everything.
When we finally reached home daddy, I broke out even more.As I slowly lied sleeping Avan on the sofa and climbed the stairs,I felt So weak that I sat just in front of your room weeping before finally I turned the door knob and helplessly entered in. I was so much hoping that you were there waiting for my return. Dissapointed,you weren't there. but I felt you daddy. You were there.
I never did stopped crying as I sat on the bed that you used to sleep. I just could not understand how just the other night you were so alive and the next morning I found you were gone.Forever.
So I cried my heart out. Again and again all I could think of is you...
There was never a goodbye...
So much to say...
So much to redeem...
So much pain and broken hearted that even lovers would not understand.
Such despair that perhaps wouldn't heal. So I turned to God. That now I speak Jesus's name every Single day that I miss you dearly. Asking for His grace to help me Salvage US.
Daddy... I sure hope my prayers get to you
Daddy... A prayers for forgiveness and love unfullfilled. That so I weep but for gladness nor sorrow. That so I smile in certain you are in peace. That time will heal, I know it will.
I speak your name with proudness and love.That once I was daddy's girl and forever still.
Rest now daddy,rest. All is well.All is well.
Untill we meet again...
ICoii
24.9.12
We finally went home today.I have no words to actually describe how I felt inside... Going back to the place where you took your last breath. I have tried so hard to avoid this day...yet today, Im home.I'm overwhelmingly dreadful..
I had a lot going on in my mind. Unbearable pain mostly missing the moments that you have spent with us. With ME. And the thought of knowing that you wont be visiting us anytime
Soon... I missed the time when Vin was so exited picking you up at the terminal and we had some drinks afterwards. My heart ache as everything i see and do reminds me of you...
Dear Daddy,
The ferry is departing at 430pm today. We arrived 2hrs early. We sat waiting at your friend's restaurant. Avan was being so super hyperactive. He wont stop at nothing. As soon as we boarded, my heart sank remembering the days that you have been traveling with us. The sea was so calm today though the weatherman said its going to be otherwise. My heart was weeping.
The passenger's deck was showing Mr.Bean episodes. I wept even more when the others was laughing hilariously. I certainly know how much you love watching Mr.Bean. I miss the way you laugh so hard even without your dentures on.
As I climb up the stairs to the top of the ship, I took sometime to get comfortable and decided to walk on your shoes. It was no wonder that you have spent so much time up here. It's so beautiful once you get to appreciate it. I felt at some point...We were together and somehow you were standing in the corner smiling at me. And i wanted so much to hug you then you disappeared in thin air. So i cried even more...
As we reach the dock daddy, Suddenly nervousness Surrounds me.At the Same time, it felt so Empty but yet so heavy. I Cried all the way home. everything I See is You...
I can hear your GPS directing us the way and at times it recalculate when we took a turn. The traffic light reminded me how you almost broke the red light last time. The airport... The supermarket.. The cars...Everything.
When we finally reached home daddy, I broke out even more.As I slowly lied sleeping Avan on the sofa and climbed the stairs,I felt So weak that I sat just in front of your room weeping before finally I turned the door knob and helplessly entered in. I was so much hoping that you were there waiting for my return. Dissapointed,you weren't there. but I felt you daddy. You were there.
I never did stopped crying as I sat on the bed that you used to sleep. I just could not understand how just the other night you were so alive and the next morning I found you were gone.Forever.
So I cried my heart out. Again and again all I could think of is you...
There was never a goodbye...
So much to say...
So much to redeem...
So much pain and broken hearted that even lovers would not understand.
Such despair that perhaps wouldn't heal. So I turned to God. That now I speak Jesus's name every Single day that I miss you dearly. Asking for His grace to help me Salvage US.
Daddy... I sure hope my prayers get to you
Daddy... A prayers for forgiveness and love unfullfilled. That so I weep but for gladness nor sorrow. That so I smile in certain you are in peace. That time will heal, I know it will.
I speak your name with proudness and love.That once I was daddy's girl and forever still.
Rest now daddy,rest. All is well.All is well.
Untill we meet again...
ICoii
24.9.12
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